A few weeks ago I was sitting with two very dear friends talking about Fear It Goes. Knowing me for almost twenty years, Andrew asked my what I wanted to achieve with this blog and all else that will be a part of Fear It Goes. I realized I hadn’t really shared that with you through the previous posts. Instead, I’ve written about things that interest me.
So, this is the story of the inception of Fear It Goes and why I not only want to do this but feel I must achieve this goal. This is the legacy I want to leave.
This summer I went to a three-day business conference. Each day was packed with inspiring speakers on multiple topics. These are only a few. Sam Crowley spoke about podcasting and how we have a message to share. Croix Sather spoke of the many challenges and triumphs he faced running across America. Thomas Bahler spoke of his life as a musician, music producer and how life can offer you hard experiences to gift you wonderful new lives. Teresa de Grosbois spoke about influence and how we can create more. Jack Canfield (Chicken soup for the Soul) spoke on his principles and how they will help you achieve more. Marcia Weider spoke about wounds and how embracing them would allow you to live your dreams.
It was three days of educational, inspirational concepts to take forward in your business. When Marcia Weider came on stage, she had an undeniably powerful presence. As soon as she spoke of wounds she had my full attention. I knew I carried wounds that I wanted to rid myself of but didn’t know how to get over them.
Growing up in a violent, angry home had its toll on everyone. To this day I don’t believe those wounds have healed fully. Not for anyone involved. There is a lot more understanding around them. But, I have come to understand the coping mechanisms of childhood don’t serve me well today. There is an understanding of the cycle behind everyone and why history repeats.
So, when Marcia asked if anyone had a question my arm shot up. I wanted to know how to rid myself of these wounds. I wanted to know how to be the person I know I’m meant to be. Not this person held back by fears that have paralyzed parts of me and left me feeling like true happiness was an elusive story people spoke of. I wanted to break free from this. Who wouldn’t, right?
Being an outgoing extrovert, you’d think standing up in this room of about six hundred people would be easy but I was petrified, shaking, but determined to find the answer I needed.
I said, “I have big dreams.”
Marcia immediately asked, “What are they?”
So I told her about R.O.H.(Roof Over Head) This is the foundation I want to start. It’s low-income housing for families, with an educational component. I believe if you give people the right tools they will never need to use the system again. I want to help families so they never fall back to into a state of poverty.
She then asked what my question was.
I responded, “How do I get over my wounds and stop being held down?”
She looked at me and said “Sweetheart, you don’t get over them. You embrace them and see that they are part of what makes you, you.”
This was the beginning of the change I’ve now committed my life to.
I signed up to her program right there. Part of her package included two tickets to a three-day event within the next month. I expected to do the live stream but a month later I was sitting in Los Angeles listening to this 4’11” woman with the courage and power of a president.
Over the month leading up to the event, podcasting kept creeping into my thoughts. I knew I wanted to do one. I decided I would start it.
On the first day of the event, everything she said reinforced doing the podcast but on the second day I understood why I not only wanted to do this podcast but why I NEEDED to do it. I wanted to release my fears. I wanted to create a movement to help others release their fears too. I wanted to live a life of purpose, on purpose and full of gratitude. I wanted others to live the life they always wanted. I wanted fears to never hold them back from or ever paralyze them again.
My life has been full of debilitating fears. Fears I didn’t understand or even acknowledge. Some have been hard to realize. Fears controlled my twenties; kept me in unhealthy relationships, stopped me from pursuing my dreams, even stopped me from believing that any dream would ever be possible for me. I’ve worked hard to improve, to educate myself, to build my courage and self worth yet something was still holding me back. And, some days, still does.
So, this is why Fear It Goes has been born. I know there are many of you out there that have fears that hold you back. Fears that prevent you from being all you can be. I want to share this journey with you. I want to embrace courage in the face of fear and let you know you are not alone in these daily challenges. Together we will achieve. We will dream again and live our most empowered life because today we choose it. I’m here to walk you through some of my challenges, some of my thoughts, some of my dreams but, most of all, I’m here to let you know you are not alone in these struggles. If I can take steps, so can you. We can heal together.
Will you live a fulfilling life, a life of purpose, a life where you can take your fear with you and still achieve what you want, a life you are proud of? I hope you’ll take this journey with me. I hope that my experiences will help you in your journey to be the person you want to be.